i can't get into the internet, so i'm doing this on notepad first.

i went to vist my father again yesterday and he finally got his last rite. another sign to say that he's going to leave soon. honestly speaking, i can't stand to see him now. simply because he's so thin.

now the funeral and the wake is in the talks now. and i know how i'd like him to be sent off. as a daughter, its the least i can do him right? it wont matter what the other family members might say. if they're not going to come up with the money. i can do this on my own. i'm not working so hard for nothing you know?

so the past few nights i've been praying to God. asking him t give me the strength i need.its better this way. maybe losing a father makes me grow up faster. and it might bring me closer to reality.

i've told some people of the plans. plans of the funeral. and everything else. because i know that these people will be there. and they will stand by me. no matter what. if claire told some people then i wouldn't know.

its all going to happen soon. and somehow. maybe it just hasn't set in. its all about getting trhough it.


forever is awfully long.



sher, cheer up. the world isn't over alright?
I STILL LOVE YOU.